Doing Unto Me
You might have noticed that I haven't blogged much about my personal life yet. That's because there hasn't been a lot of good stuff in my life and I find myself reluctant to post about the bad or even the mediocre even if I could figure out a way to channel Elayne and make it laugh 'til it hurts funny.
The problem is that when any of my friends post about their problems THEY are sharing. They are getting support, clearing the air, and any other psycho babble phrases you want to use. When I think about talking about my problems then the voice in my head immediately gives me hell for wanting to whine and dump on people. If I go ahead and do it anyway I feel guilty afterwards.
This is not the only area in my life where if the Golden Rule were worded a little differently and we were supposed to do unto other AS we do unto ourselves instead of as WE WISH they would treat us I would be immensely unpopular. I give just about everyone more slack than I give myself.
I need to work on that.
So, anybody want to hear about my week with the 175/105 blood pressure incident and so not having any caffeine in a week and the UTI and the PMS and the mammogram appointment and the dizziness that could be the BP or the fever or a side effect of the Cipro and being stuck in traffic for nearly an hour on my way home because the interstate was backed up from an accident, and people coming to me with projects that had to be done NOW because we are going to have an accreditation survey soon and the near constant headache that could be attributed to any and all of the above except for the wreck since it just happened?
Probably not.
The problem is that when any of my friends post about their problems THEY are sharing. They are getting support, clearing the air, and any other psycho babble phrases you want to use. When I think about talking about my problems then the voice in my head immediately gives me hell for wanting to whine and dump on people. If I go ahead and do it anyway I feel guilty afterwards.
This is not the only area in my life where if the Golden Rule were worded a little differently and we were supposed to do unto other AS we do unto ourselves instead of as WE WISH they would treat us I would be immensely unpopular. I give just about everyone more slack than I give myself.
I need to work on that.
So, anybody want to hear about my week with the 175/105 blood pressure incident and so not having any caffeine in a week and the UTI and the PMS and the mammogram appointment and the dizziness that could be the BP or the fever or a side effect of the Cipro and being stuck in traffic for nearly an hour on my way home because the interstate was backed up from an accident, and people coming to me with projects that had to be done NOW because we are going to have an accreditation survey soon and the near constant headache that could be attributed to any and all of the above except for the wreck since it just happened?
Probably not.
posted by Ranuel | 6:58 PM
2 Comments:
Yes. I DO want to hear about it. Here's the thing; when I focus on other people's shit--even if it's only to say--hey, I feel for you--it makes me feel less alone, less "I'm the only fucked up one out there." It helps me stop comparing my insides to other people's outsides. So, please. Bring it on.
Love you.
(((Mandy)))
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